My Sunday Evening in UTM

this is fucking real

dah nak habis utm ni dia buat perangi macam syaitan

wifi yes 4g memang connected but nak masuk website macam syaitan

i'm soooo soooo depressed with the whole thing in utm

tak kisah lah dengan manusia ke dengan benda ke dengan apa saja lah

i know i've ruined my rule where i should stay still with my 21 days challenge sentiasa syukur without missed but every day i crashed into something suck, i've to restart my counting days

thefuck

yes

aku sedia maklum. my room memang dekat hujung and susah nak connect tapi tetap

FUCK U 

i don't care what people might think about me 

about my harsh and rude word however, this is fuck

.

ey you know what, perasaan takkan sama taw how we judge 

people yang pernah stabbed your back harsh !

i'm not acting like a child but i've gave my apologies (without them asking for that kind of apologies) since years agoooooo but still, kena tikam juga.

so don't forced me to like them again and again..

korang nak baik nak rapat ke apa, lantak lah. don't drag me into that.

I don't mind to be isolated pun. lagipun, dah tak lama dah nak duduk dekat sini..

i'm just going to focus on my work, and move on from this hectic and pretending life.

lagipun, korang bukan suka aku sangat pun. bila perlu je.

ada lah nak cari aku. get it?

but its okay. aku layan kan aje.

basically. saya naaaak sangat jadi seseorang yang easily to be approached. no matter who you are. 

what you look. what level you're. how old are you. because i really want to help people no matter in what circumstances they want to seek my help.

seriously. dunia ni kan bukan kita punya. semuanya milik Allah.

ILMU tu semua milik Allah.

However, learnt to ask. jangan malu jangan segan. 

andddd ikhlaskan hati nak tolong. bukan sebab kau dah power ke apa ke.

serious. 

jangan angkuh. 

aku sabar je..

Allah...

Please allow me to move from this area..

aku nak move on dari sini and build my new life with new people and new way.

bukan stay je duduk dengan orang-orang yang taknak move on.

Hmmm...

If i was given chance to help, i will help till they meet the success.

not half way. 

anddd if i can do it by myself, i will strive till i met the way. 

 be different and beautiful 

my first wear of new fght jacket (geodesy section).

its nice by the way.

and this is my alone and final field work performing vrs for my psm where i succeed to connect to the server yang macam @#$%^&.

people might say, kita ni tak baik because we have no friend or no good friend who can sacrifies their time for our own benefits. 

but they don't know.

 how awkward it is to keep on pleasing people so that they will be happy to befriend with us. 

its a real hard to think that we've tried our best to be a good friend for them. trying to fulfill their requests.

Allah je tahu..

I know I can do it and bukan aku sombong tapi aku taknakkkk sangat susahkan orang. 

As long as I can manage it by myself, i will try hard.

Whenever its impossible, then I will try to ask.

I'm tired.