What Type of People Around You

Assalamualaikum and Hi ..

First and foremost, oh Allah. Please made me the most ignorance woman in the world. And yeah, I'm waiting for the moment where I will be disappeared from this holy crap world. 

This is not a page of confession but today I've to confess my feeling where its always happened. Actually I just liked a page of UTM Confession where many students did confessed how they feel towards something, someone, somewhere, somewhat. I do realized about the existence of this page but somehow, its just today where I eagerly liked and read all of the confessions (not to the first confession la).

I'm not going to confess about my feeling there pretending nobody will know us haha padahal let say some of them confessed about someone else, the other people who will always perasan it is her, will cursed you inside ! Definitely ! But in front of you, they will smile till their nose expand as much as they can. 

Lately, I noticed about few things. When we resist to do something what they asked, there must be something followed by the tragedies. Basically, I tried to not be a cow where I've to listen and say YES to each of your words dudes. I tried. I try to isolate myself and focusing on my psm project and I wish that I can finish all of them right at the moment with no delays ! This is fucking important. I'm now got nobody to be with as all of them are running away from me just because of my disobeyed of their requests. Frankly speaking, dude, come on ! Is it a necessity? Is it a requisite? Friends. What is the definition of friend? From my point of views, as long as you keep on pleasuring them with something happy and satisfy their desires, then you'll be so called as friend. You will be one of their keperluan whenever you've everything and trust me, they will keep on attaching to your side whenever, wherever, whatever you do without wrong. 

YES. Thats the point !

I feel very useless here. 

Its okay.

Allah. I will keep praying and asking for your forgiveness of all my wrongdoings. I pray to you, oh Allah. Let me finish this phase and I want to start new with new surrounding, new people, new life with new attitude and an easy going people where I can be accepted no matter in what point no matter in what circumstances I face ! I want to have a real friend where they accept me the way I am and I want to learn how life is. I want to be surrounded with people who realized about everything.

I'm now sound very cruel and bad right. But who cares?

Its the time where I have to stop acting and begging, 'dear friends, please accept me wherever you are'.

Trust me. I'm tired of this kind of general thought. I'm so gonna walking through this journey to the end and finish everything no matter how hypocrite the scene are no matter how bad or suck its look like.

I promise.

Wassalam. 

Sincerely,

Your not true friend,

Your Cruel and Suck Friend.

Your a no-call-friend.